Saturday, January 2, 2021

But I Signed up for Eternity

When I began my journey of being married to a man that was unfaithful to his marriage vows and to me, my resources were pitifully small. Not only were my reources small, but there was nothing - NOTHING - that applied to a temple marriage. I was alone and isolated in my decisions. It is not my way to suffer alone and I began looking and talking, and trying to learn and heal. I started a blog that had one entry. Just one. I thought I could gather a group. If you were to search the internet using key words that described what I knew about my husband's infidelity - emotional affair and LDS, my blog topped the list. The people that visited it were as lost as I was. Actually, they were in horrific pain. I had crossed into the land of rage. Not angry rage but RAGE. I wasn't as helpful as I thought I might be, although I like to think I had more to offer on my road of recover. It's been nearly 19 years and I believe my journey should not be wasted on nothingness. Although the internet is now full of better resources, I might have a unique take on infidelity - emotional and sexual - that will help you with your journey. I would have done things differently in some cases, but there are things I know now that I didn't know then. Hang in there and be prepared to do what needs to be done to come out the other side with a view of happiness.